Friday, June 27, 2008

Awesome Throne Room, pt. 2

Well, it may be the beginning for some, but for myself, summer has reached the midpoint. Here's another recap.


On Monday I took my two sisters to Magic Mountain, which was my second visit of the summer so far (and also the second time making that long drive... ugh.) The trip provided me more chances to ride X2, which is the "new" coaster they're pushing this summer. It's not actually a new ride, but Six Flags had to redesign the trains for technical reasons, so they decided to add music, flamethrowers, and a new paint job to it so they could try to brand it as a new ride and get a return on their investment. The end result is that, somehow, they've made this insane mess of a ride even crazier. Now, you're being flipped every which way while being bombarded with flames AND rocking out. I liked the coaster before the transformation, but I'm glad to see these extra touches in the ride now. After riding that ride first, we then proceeded to destroy the park, one coaster at a time, and then I danced in a random DDR competition near the park entrance (and did alright, at that.)


What should have been a Disneyland group trip on Tuesday devolved into pretty much just a Chewie trip. Plans were to drive up in the morning, spend time in the park, and then Amy would ditch to march in the electrical parade, but (to make a very long, detailed, and rather gross story short) I ended up being at the mercy of Disneyland scheduling conflicts and Amy's wounded foot. So, in the end, Amy and I drove up to Anaheim in the afternoon, had lunch, and then I dropped her off at the Disneyland doctor (I didn't know they had that... something about Disneyland I didn't know!) and spent the majority of the day by myself. This wasn't a bad thing though, as I've spent entire days at the park by myself before. It was mostly just a relaxing day, watching parades and random shows while staying out of the sun.

It did, however, provide my a chance to ride the new Toy Story Mania ride twice. It was an hour wait both times, which is acceptable for a new ride, but I don't know that I'd wait that long for it again unless I was with a group. Regardless, the best description I can give is that it's like playing Wii on wheels. It's also in 3d, and has some cool sensory effects. It is by no means fantastic, but it is a good, solid ride, and (like Nemo last year) a ride that the whole family can enjoy together. I definitely would like to see more rides like this one in the future.

I spent the rest of the day wandering, riding a ride here and there, occasionally dropping into the Emporium to chat with Amy (they wouldn't let her dance, so they moved her to a gift shop,) and watching Fantasmic and the fireworks. They made a few changes to Fantasmic since I'd last seen it, including brand new lighting equipment and a new pyro sequence during the finale. While I enjoyed the new lighting effects, I am not a fan of what they've done to the end of the show. Most people won't notice a change, and it doesn't ruin the show, but I will miss the old routine.

After park closing, Amy got off work, we went on a shoes adventure, and then hung out at Denny's for a couple hours before going home.


Wednesday could best be described as a "Regal Day". No work, but I spent the majority of the day with most of the Regal staff.

After DDR'ing in the morning, I headed to Bradley Park at 3 pm for the first ever Edwards San Marcos softball game. The game put floor versus concessions, resulting in a 20-12 victory for the floor department. I am thinking that Vince will not be hearing the end of it until well into next year. I didn't play because, well, I suck. But, I did film the game, which will be on Youtube soon (read: when I feel like it), so look for that on this blog as well. Thankfully there were many other spectators, so I didn't feel like too much of a loser.

The people who didn't have to work after the game split into two groups: the ones who went bowling, and the ones who went to the beach, with the beach group being mostly concessions and the bowling group mostly floor. I went to the beach with Ryan and Vince in hopes to start another bonfire, but there were no fire pits available, so we all huddled around a barbecue picnic area instead.

Vince and I were both buried in the sand (that's me in the picture, being poked with a stick,) games of ultimate frisbee and soccer happened, and floor did end up showing up later in the evening.

The ones left after the beach party migrated to In n Out for dinner and chatting on the dining patio. We stayed there for a good 2 or 3 hours until they made us leave. By the end there was still a good 10-15 people left (from the original 30 at the game,) with a good mix of floor and concessions people. Hopefully this can happen more often.


I returned to work on Thursday, which wasn't all bad because I got paid to watch Wall*E. Won't spend too much time on this, other than to say that Pixar has produced yet another hit, even if it's a bit of a change of pace and somewhat depressing at moments. After work I was able to hit the midnight show for Wanted with Amy and a few of her friends, effectively seeing all of this weekend's new offerings before the start of the weekend. This movie was pretty much exactly what I expected: big, dumb, loud, summer action fare- fun for one viewing, but entirely forgettable.


My agenda for this week includes helping Vince move (again, but this time to San Marcos,) seeing Weird Al at the fair, another possible Disneyland trip, and a DCI show with Laura (which I am starting to get pretty excited about.) Also somewhere in there I need to register for fall classes and work for a few hours in the morning at least one of those days. I would also like to work on finishing up some of the unfinished sections of this website and take another stab at fixing my sister's computer. Also, Vince is house sitting for Ryan's family this week, so I'm pretty much going to be living there until they return.

If I feel like writing next week (more than likely,) I'll probably recap all that stuff too. Lucky you!!!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

We Will Fall Together

Internal conflict, fate versus free will, the weight of our decisions, making the most of our time on Earth, the illusion of control- some ideas that have been plaguing me over the past week or so. Streetlight Manifesto seems to enjoy writing about these sort of things in their music.



"Sitting, waiting, watching, rotting,
everything they warned us of is true-
now tell me what we're all supposed to do.

They're coming after all of us with everything they've got,
with the fury of a soldier who will answer to his god.
So how will we fight, when all we have is logic and love on our side?"

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Random, Pre-Bedtime Thoughts


I just came back from a midnight hike up to the top of the hill at Palomar College (the one with the giant "p" stamped into the side of it.) Apart from being a great nighttime excursion, an excuse to waste a monday evening, and a bonding experience with some people I don't hang out with nearly enough, I've realized that I feel most at peace when I'm at these amazing, sweeping vistas, like the view from Berkeley, and the view of the Golden Gate Bridge from the nearby cliffs.

I suppose it either makes me feel really big, or really small, I can't tell which. But I guess I can just appreciate the world more. It's the first time I'd ever seen our city from such a perspective- not sure why I chose to write about this in particular, but it was a cool experience.

In other news, I had a molten chocolate cake from Chili's for the first time since November, and I couldn't get halfway through it before feeling like I wanted to die. I think this really does signal the beginning of a new era in my life.

Tomorrow I may or may not go in to work. I was suppose to go today I guess, but last night I ended up staying up until sunrise, and sleeping until 2 in this afternoon. Consequently, I probably won't be tired until much later tonight, and I'll end up missing work again. I'm not at all tired now, but hopefully I'll lay down and find that the hike will have worn me out enough to fall asleep anyway. I have to start undoing all the mayhem we caused from the Narnia promo. I also need a hair cut. Either tomorrow or Wednesday I'll get that done.

I traded in Warioware DS, Rayman DS, Bomberman DS and Harry Potter Wii at the game store today and bought Okami, which is a crazy game where you're a japanese sun goddess trapped in the body of a white wolf, and you have the ability to literally paint the landscape and alter your surroundings. So far it seems like a really trippy, surreal kind of game. If I don't go to work or get my hair cut this week, it'll probably be because of that.

Oh yeah, a story before I go. Myself, Vince, Jay and Casey were driving around in my car trying to figure out what to do (before we decided to hike,) when we saw a couple arguing with each other outside the theater. We decided to turn around and make loops around that general area of the parking lot, blasting "Can You Feel the Love Tonight?" and "A Whole New World" with the car windows down and me and Vince belting the lyrics. I'd like to think that if they made up, it was because of our mood setting efforts.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

GIANT San Francisco Recap


So I'm here at the airport in SF, waiting for my 8pm flight. At some point I know this is all going to come out on this blog, so with the time I have I'll go ahead and see how much of this I can put down now, and I'll probably finish up when I get home this evening or maybe tomorrow morning.


Monday: My day technically began at 1:30am after my projections shift. I drove to Vince's house, met up with him and Laura and the three of us went to get donuts and then drop off Drippy at UCSD for her final (apparently she spent the night there.... apparently this is a normal thing for UCSD people...?). We went back to his house with donuts and stayed up for a few hours making ridiculous lists of things before going to bed.


I woke up at 8:30ish, and Vince drove me to the airport. My flight boarded at 11am, so I ended up waiting around for about an hour since it didn't take very long to get through security. The flight was uneventful and went real smoothly. Liz met me at the airport at 1:30, where we began our long journey to Berkeley. We took the subway from the airport to downtown San Francisco, spending the ride catching up with each other, mainly about her job and roommates, and some crazy stuff that's happened in my life. We spent almost the entire ride sharing stories which were good times.


In downtown we went to the Embarcadero district and had lunch at a really good sandwich shop called Gambino's, where we got sandwiches and tomato bisque and ate in the nearby park. Afterwards, we re-boarded the subway and continued to Berkeley. After arriving at the station, we walked a good half mile or so from the station to her house. Her house is located in kind of a strange neighborhood, part ghetto/part suburb, kind of midway between the cities of Berkeley, Oakland and Emeryville, so it was a kind of strange mix of people but ultimately a nice place. The whole city seemed very different that what I'm used to in San Diego, which was what I was hoping for on this trip.

Liz had work at 5, so she left shortly after we got to her house. While she worked for 4 hours, I played Metal Slug while listening to classic rock radio, and then I put on MuggleCast and listened to it for a good 45 minutes or so before I fell asleep. She and Bartz came home shortly after I woke up at 8, and we ordered pizza from a really cool 24 hr Italian place (they DO exist!) and watched the Regal movie. Then we played Mario Kart for a bit and went to sleep around 1.

Tuesday: Liz, Bartz (Eric) and I woke up at around 10 and went out for breakfast at a diner in Emeryville called Rudy's, where I had some delicious chicken apple sausages. While wearing my Ratatouille shirt, we then ventured to Pixar Studios (which apparently they'd never been to but have always wondered it's location,) where I got several pictures taken of myself in front of the now iconic Pixar sign. I also embarrassed myself and probably Liz by waving at every car entering and exiting Pixar studios, hoping I'd see John Lasseter or Andrew Stanton or some otherwise famous Pixarian.


Once I had finished geeking out, Bartz drove us around Berkeley, giving me a tour of the city and of the UC Berkeley campus. We saw some cool sights, like Telegraph Avenue (where a bunch of college students protesting Vietnam were beat down by police in the 70's,) a giant tuning fork, a dorm building that looked suspiciously like Hogwarts, and a bunch of other historic or otherwise interesting places.


At some point we ended up at a national park type place up and behind the Berkeley campus, which offered a completely mesmerizing view of the entire bay area, including the Bay Bridge, the Golden Gate, Alcatraz, the Palace of Fine Arts, and everything else there was to see. It was seriously one of the most breathtaking sights I'd ever seen- I probably could have stayed there all day just to admire the view.


When we came back down to civilization, we decided to check out an ice cream place in downtown called Ici, unsure of whether or not we'd have time to get ice cream before Bartz had to get to work. I'm told that this place usually has a line about a block long, though we luckily came at a time where there was no line at all. When I got my ice cream, I could easily see how the line would be that long. They had all kinds of homemade, gourmet ice creams, with unique flavors like darjeeling and basil ice creams. The flavor I got was ollalieberry, which is some hybrid of at least 4 kinds of different berries. It was served in a fresh baked sugar cone that was lightly coated in sprinkled sugar and had a small amount melted chocolate sauce at the bottom tip of the cone. It was definitely one of the most delicious desserts I had ever tasted.

As we were walking down the street back to our car, one particularly succulent lick of the cone caused my only half-finished ice cream to tumble off the cone, roll down my Ratatouille shirt and onto the ground. It happened like it was slow motion in a movie- I could see it happening, but there was nothing I could do to stop it. Not wanting to be wasteful (or buy another cone,) I proceeded to pick up the scoop of ice cream, scrape off the underside and continue eating it. Though, because of the heat, the dark purple ice cream began to melt immediately in my hand like radioactive blood. In a panic, instead of doing the logical thing and sticking it back onto the cone, I shoved the whole ball of ice cream in my mouth. NOT a good idea. Brain freeze times 10. I think I may have almost passed out there at some point.

We returned home shortly afterwards, with Liz and Bartz both having to depart for work soon after that. I had planned on going for a walk, but I ended up falling asleep for the next three hours.


Ryan, who decided to depart from his family vacation a day early and come visit, arrived in Berkeley at around 6pm. Turned out that he was completely lost when he got into the city, and I wasn't much help as I had no idea where I was either, but we communicated on phone with me at google maps, trying to guide him to my location. He eventually made it, and Bartz came home from work not too long after, so we tested each others Mario Kart skills once again.

After Liz came home at 9, the four us, along with two of their downstairs roommates (Brent and Chris) went out for dinner at a very tasty Indian restaurant, where Ryan tried a very odd salty drink that tasted much like a cucumber smoothie. I would not recommend said drink.

We spent some time back home at the downstairs portion of the house where the other roommates live, hanging out a bit and trying to figure out why the website they were trying to build was not working. Eventually I was able to help them set up their new website on GoDaddy. We spent more time hanging out upstairs, playing more games and chatting with Alex (who is the only person who lives in the upstairs with Liz and Bartz.) He's a cool cat.

Wednesday: Ryan departed at 7am on Wednesday morning- although he didn't spend too much time in the city, it was a lot of fun and I'm really glad he showed up. I slept for the next few hours, and then Liz and I drove to Great America at 10.


California's Great America, formerly known as Paramount's Great America, is an amusement park located in Santa Clara (about 50 minutes away from Liz's place) that was owned and operated by the Paramount Group before Paramount went bust and sold their parks to Cedar Fair (who owns Knott's and several other parks.) In short, it's a lot like a Six Flags, but cleaner and with a much higher family oriented crowd base. They seemed to have a pretty good mix of roller coasters and family rides, though I did notice that the park looked and felt as if a 12 year old designed it in Roller Coaster Tycoon. Despite it not making much of an effort to be more than just a generic amusement park, it was a nice place to spend a day. The 6 big coasters they had could easily stand their ground at a Six Flags park, though there were obviously no heavy hitters along the lines of X, Scream or Tatsu.


About halfway through the day, something happened that blew my mind. In our quest to find a way to cool off, we ran into one of those water play areas for kids, which we proceeded to get totally drenched in. Walking a little farther down the way, we noticed more and more people were in full on bathing suits. As it turned out, Great America's water park is actually located within the theme park itself. Unlike at Magic Mountain, there is no separate gate or admission price. There were really no rules about attire, either; I noticed people in bathing suits riding coasters, as well as people who were fully clothed riding water slides. At $75, I would easily have an annual pass to that place if I lived in the bay area, and I would be there every week. Now, I knew previously that there are parks that operate in this manner, but it was the first time I'd ever encountered one and the first chance I've ever had to analyze how such a park could operate. With me being a theme park dweeb, I could go so much farther into my thoughts on this park, but I'll save that (perhaps for another post.)


After getting completely drenched in our normal clothes, drying off, and riding a few more coasters, Liz and I left the park at around 6:30. We decided that, since I was beginning to run out of trip money, we would go to the grocery store (which she had to visit anyway,) and get stuff to make our own dinner. Because it's the only thing I really know how to make, I opted for fettuccine alfredo. We went back to the house and prepared noodles, salad, garlic bread (which I make by replicating my mom's technique,) and alfredo sauce with shrimp and broccoli. We quickly realized that we had prepared way too much food, but luckily Alex came home hungry, and Chris came upstairs looking for something to eat, only to find a complete dinner set at the table. So four of us randomly sat down at the table for a wonderful meal.

After dinner, two more people came upstairs (Sebastian and Donna I think; two of Chris' friends who were visiting from Escondido, but are planning to move to Berkeley later this summer.) We spent the next few hours chatting, recounting crazy work stories, and just relaxing in general. We then decided to watch Rushmore (one of two Wes Anderson movies I hadn't seen, the other being Bottle Rocket,) which I loved. I fell asleep shortly after the movie ended, and don't really remember everyone leaving.

Thursday: I slept in until close to Noon, which is something that needs to happen at least once when you're on a vacation. Liz made pancakes and bacon for breakfast, which were awesome. After breakfast I packed up by belongings (which didn't take too long; I travel very light) and prepared to head out for my last day.


At around 1:30 I said bye to Bartz (since I would not be returning to the house before leaving) as Liz and I headed out to Muir Woods, which is a redwood forest located near the Golden Gate area. There really isn't a whole lot to say about this experience, other than that this was one of those places that I need to see and experience myself to prove that such places actually do exist in the world. Otherwise, my only proof is what I see in movies, making such place just as real as Tatooine or Narnia. We took about a 1 1/2 mile hike through the woods, exploring some of the hillside trails. One of the things I learned from Liz was that the wood was where the first meeting of the UN occurred after WWII at a place called the "temple of peace." The location, which we hiked through, did seem like something of a natural temple, what with the way the trees formed a cathedral looking ceiling.


On our way back, we stopped at Muir Beach, which was very different from beaches that I'm used to. The redwood forest seemed to just end at the edge of a huge cliff side, which dropped off and became a white sand beach. As Liz waded for a bit, I sat on a rock and reflected on life for a while in this surreal location, before heading back to the car.

After driving back through the Muir Woods area while listening to The Postal Service and Tally Hall, we finally came to Golden Gate Bridge on our quest back to San Francisco. Before crossing, we pulled off the freeway and onto a winding road that led up to some cliffs that provided some of the most amazing views of the bridge I could ever imagine. Pictures don't do this thing justice; I'm not sure what it is about it, but there's a reason so many tourists come to see it- it's simply a spectacular sight. This was another place I could easily spend my entire day admiring the view, and I had a hard time leaving it.


After admiring the bridge, we actually got to drive over it, which was just as as thrilling and still a completely different experience. We spent the next half an hour or so driving through the city on our way to the airport, which was clear on the other side of the city.


At some point, we got out to go find some food before I had to be at the airport. This gave me a chance to walk around some of the hilly areas that are so often shown in movies located in San Francisco. We walked several blocks, going in and out of different restaurants before deciding on a random pizzeria. From there, we finished our trek and ended up back at San Francisco International at 6.





So, as predicted, I'm no longer at the airport where I started writing this post (I had to put it away somewhere during the part about Great America.) To add to all of this, the flight was once again uneventful, though I'd like to add that nighttime landing in San Diego provides some amazing views of our beautiful city. Drippy picked me up from the airport, where I officially ended my vacation.

Some final thoughts on the week: first, I'd like to note that this was the first vacation I'd ever planned and executed completely on my own, and also the first time I'd ever flown by myself. While I'm obviously aware that I am technically an adult, I don't usually feel like one, so when I do things like fly by myself for the first time it really put things in perspective (not a bad thing, just eye opening.)

Adding to the idea of new perspective, every time I visit someplace new I realize more and more how huge this world is, and how many different lives and lifestyles exist within in. I made the comparison earlier to Tatooine or Narnia, in that I know there are places that exist at all times, but I need to actually see them to know that they are real. On the flip side, while I was in San Francisco I had a hard time wrapping my head around the idea that the life that all my friends back at home live in was still existing at the same time.

Finally, a comment on my motivations in general: the reason I took this trip (aside from wanting to visit some friends I don't often get to see) was to clear my head and get away from all of the stresses and drama I've had to endure over the last two-ish years. Did it work? Well, in short, not really. It's not a bad thing, though. In fact, I half expected this to happen; "You can't run away from your troubles- there ain't no place that far!" There's no way that a vacation can make such things go away- just make them hide for a little while. But it did help to put things in perspective; to realize that the world is bigger than I will ever be able to wrap my head around, and that, whatever I'm dealing with, there are an infinite amount of people with their own unique issues that are as bad or multiple times worse than mine. And it makes me feel both small and big at the same time. I don't quite know how to make sense of what I'm thinking at the moment (which isn't too uncommon with me,) but, for some reason, I feel like things make a little more sense, are a little more manageable, and that I'm ready to dive back in, head first to my crazy life. Because of this, I'd say that this week was a success- I saw some friends, rode some roller coasters, ate some great food, and went to places which blew my mind. Now it's time to deal with the shit, and in the immortal words of the professor brothers, "You've got to deal with the shit, in order to BE the shit."

So what next? Vegas, perhaps? We'll see what's in store, I guess. What I can tell you for certain is that the next post on this blog won't be anywhere near this long.

"Keep moving forward..."

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Prince Caspian Book

FINALLY! It's finished! Behold!!!



And here's a few more pictures of the exterior.





And here's a few of the page spreads from the actual interior of the book:





So, it's finished, finally. Wow, it's been a long process, going back all the way to early February when we were first hearing rumors of the project and putting the movie up on the marquees. All in all, I'm very happy with the way everything turned out, I've got a few things I want to try differently for next time around and hopefully can learn from some of the mistakes I've made. But not bad for a first time effort, if I do say so myself.

Interestingly enough, I was tipped off by my district promotions manager about what the next project picture is most likely going to be (90% sure she said,) so rather than getting to take a breather, my mind is already running and trying to come up with some good ideas for next time around. It's going to be a lot tougher if this movie turns out to be it, but I'll wait until I know for sure.

I've got a few errands to do today, I'm going to play DDR for another hour, I have work at 5 (my projections shift- no big deal,) and then I'm off to San Francisco in the morning.

"Stay Classy, San Diego..."

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Myself, pt. 2

So, I guess I've never commented on this in this blog, so now is probably a good time to do so, while I'm in the midst of this rapid change.

About a month ago I decided I didn't like being fat anymore, so I decided to go on a real diet for the first time in my life. This sparked from two things: 1) I stopped eating fast food in order to save for San Francisco and realized I was dropping weight because of it; 2) I looked at my drivers license... I weighed 205 during my senior year when the photo was taken, and I had jumped to 243 when I pulled it out and looked at it a month ago. I think another motivation was that I realized I need to learn to like myself on my own, and not gain my strength from an outside source. I began to realize how weak I was, and now I'm trying to do something about that. Its part of the whole whiny, emo post I put up last month about realizing how I dislike myself.

So, my solution? Dance Dance Revolution, as a matter of fact. It's a game I used to play in high school all the time. Maybe because it's a rhythm game, or because it was still relatively new at the time, but DDR was all the rage at band geek parties back in the day, and I had become pretty good at it by the time I stopped playing at the end of high school. I got the idea when I went lasertagging and decided on a whim to play a round on the machine they had set up in their lobby. I did alright for not having played in years, but I wanted to practice and get good at it again. I went home and found my sister's pad (which they never use) and noticed it had a usb connector on it. I went online and downloaded StepMania, which is an open source version of DDR, completely free, which lets you to create your own levels and download custom song packs (as well as all of the official Konami DDR packs) from the internet. So far I've downloaded close to 700 songs, playing them on random whenever I play.

So now, a month later, and after playing DDR for minimum an hour per day and completely swearing off fast food all together (which has been absolutely KILLING me,) I am 22 pounds lighter and a hell of a lot better at DDR than I ever was, even back in high school. I'm still not anywhere near as good as those kids who play all day in arcade rooms and blow everyone away, but for a big fat guy I think I can impress a few people. Hopefully, though, I will one day work up to being as good as one of those skinny, sweat covered, arcade stalking Asian kids.

It been a really interesting experience- I know I'm probably always going to be an awkwardly built fat guy, but this is the first time I've ever seen such rapid weight loss in me, and the first time I've ever actively tried to take care of myself. I bought a piece of fruit over a churro at Magic Mountain this past Monday! If present-me went back in time and told past-me that I would one day find myself at a theme park turning down something fried for an apple, past-me would laugh and laugh and laugh.

This has also been the first time where I've had any kind of consistent exercise routine. Its both rewarded and stress relieving- often times I find that the endorphin rush I feel at the end of exercising helps rid myself of the stress brought on by my drama filled life. I'm also finding myself sleeping better and having less problems with allergies and my skin ailments. I'm not sure if this is directly related, or maybe just a result of having a better diet, but I'm liking it. Hopefully I can keep this up for a while. I'd like to get back down to 205; a lofty goal, I know, but incentive for me not to stop for a while.

Now if I can work on being a better person, or figuring out my place in the universe, that would really be something. One thing at a time, I suppose. Now, enough writing! I need to get my hour of DDR in for the day...

Friday, June 06, 2008

Steve

In the Aquateen Hungerforce movie, there is a scene where Steve the Lab Assistant is told by Dr. Weird to clock out for the day using the "new" punch clock, which happens to be a voodoo skull. The skull is actually a trap, which sprays him with some sort of demonic mist, causing his eyebrows to slow burn off, followed by all of his hair slowly melting away. His goggles then dissolve, and then his very skin and flesh melt off of his bones and slide to the floor in a puddle of liquid. All that remains is his skeleton in a lab coat, which slowly and quietly crumples to the ground in a pile of bones.

I think it's supposed to be taken for humor (though I can't ever really tell what is "supposed" to be funny when I watch that show,) though I find it a bit unsettling. This is mainly because I sometimes find myself in a strange mood where I feel like it might actually be relaxing and kind of freeing to find yourself melting into a puddle of liquid, leaving your clothes and skeleton behind. I'm not really sure how else to explain this feeling- it's like I suddenly feel burdened by all the problems of the world; the problems I have no control over, and the problems I've unnecessarily created, hating myself for and wondering if and how I can resolve them. I think about these things and feel my brain hurt. If it's bad enough, sometimes the unpleasant feeling spreads to my stomach or other places, and I know there's nothing I can do about it until I find resolution; after all, there's no actual physical ailment causing the pain. But then I realize the brain is, in fact, a physical cause of these ailments. It's the brains fault! If I were to find my skin and vital organs suddenly melting off my bones, maybe the pain would slowly dissolve as well. Sometimes I even find myself closing my eyes and trying to imagine what this might feel like (and sometimes it does actually alleviate the pressure in my head.) Maybe it would make things better.

Or maybe it would hurt like hell (?). Maybe I'm just fucking insane. I don't know. But, at any rate, that's how I feel right now, as I can count at least 3 of those unnecessary situations I mentioned earlier, created in the last 48 hours or so and making me completely hate myself and realize how dense I can really be. Every time I feel like this I think of that scene from that absurd movie, so I figured I'd solidify my thoughts on the matter now, while I still understand this feeling.

Regardless, I do feel bad for Steve. I'm sure he's underpaid for all the crazy things Dr. Weird puts him through. He's definitely a trooper, committed to his job and never quitting when his life gets freaking crazy. Cheers to you, Steve; we should all strive to be like you. Keep on doing that science. Don't give up, even in the face of mutant corn, rabbit monsters or voodoo time clocks.